NOTE: Yesterday we sent out an account of a Revival beginning
when Christians began to forgive those who had hurt them, etc.
Today I got this amazing email in reply – sent by a third party:
FORGIVENESS Brings HEALING – TESTIMONY
Thank you so much for the powerful words you sent. I have an
amazing testimonial I’d like to share with you. I have had a very
difficult life for 10 years with chronic pain, which had degenerated
to a point where I felt like I was the walking dead. I have also had
a terrible time finding work ever since being fired two years ago,
even though I have over 20 years of college experience and many
other management years of experience.
The woman who fired me was the first person on my list of people
who I hated and wanted to suffer as I believed she had ruined my
life. I carried a vengeful heart with me every where I went. I was
also suffering from extreme insomnia and hadn’t slept for five days
in a row when I received your letter about forgiveness.
In fact, the week of my inability to sleep was so debilitating, I
wanted (twice) to go out to the field behind my house and put a
gun in my mouth to end this unbearable suffering. I did of course
talk myself out of it, praying during those long hours in the middle
of the night, to God to please help me.
When I read this letter of God’s tormentors it made me realize
that I had indeed reached the lowest point possible, and was
unable to fight anymore. I read the words and made my list. In
my state of complete surrender, I read each name and prayed
fervently for each person who had hurt me.
It was a long list of people, and I feel that because I was feeling
so weak, it possibly made it easier to forgive them as I had no
sense of pride at all left in me, and maybe Gods plan was to
reach me at my lowest and most vulnerable, yet open, state of
heart. I prayed, cried and spent many hours on my knees. God
heard this prayer. My whole being has changed and I felt
compassion and strength as only God can give. I also experienced
true miracles within hours of this time that I spent asking for
I received a phone call from an employer that I had interviewed
with months before, for a job with the State, in effect my dream
job with great pay, close to home, and health insurance to boot!!!
Of course I am elated with my newfound employment, which will
carry me through to retirement.
It was a miracle, but it was just the beginning. The next morning
following my prayer, I woke with NO PAIN, and am still, to this day,
pain free. I have a degenerative disease that is inexplicably in
recourse. Truly God Is Good and his forgivess, as well as my ability
to honestly get my hatred and vengeance out of my heart has
changed my life.
I still pray daily for my friends and my former “enemies” and want
to thank you from the bottom of my heart for sending such a
powerful message. Now, instead of having a list of people I want
to get revenge, I have a list of people who have saved my life…
In Christ´s name, Gail.